Having one of those exceptionally low days for no reason and have already had to take a Xanax because it’s so bad and I asked bff and her husband to come over because I really don’t want to be alone right now and I just….what does it feel like to be happy????? I can’t remember what it’s like to not wake up and hate myself and feel sad……I’m trying really hard I am but I just can’t be happy anymore
roomie was having a crisis again.
i rushed home and talked with her. she wanted to buy flights and go to europe…like tomorrow. and while i have a passport and that’s definitely…..doable…it doesn’t mean it’s responsible. so i told her, if she wanted to go before school started (aug 25th) i’d go with her (she has an oncologist appointment tomorrow and finds out if she has lymphoma) if they said she had cancer.
so yeah, shit is getting real ‘round here.